Talk about a Turn Around!!

Mary's tickets had sold out!!! NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She rang me anyway to say she was'nt attending the meal afterwards anyway and i've seen the demonstration before so i'm not really mising anything other than seeing 'my boys' (Solly and Sky).
So when Gran rang me to say we couldn't go i took the oppurtunity to ask her if she could drop me off at the point to point and pick me up afterwards and she said yes!! Result!!
So i have spent all day with Jas and his mate Pete! We had great fun and for once we stayed off the good old alcohol - i ask myself how the bloody hell did we manage that?!!!!!
So anyways i spent all day in heaven in Jas's arms. I wore my Quantock Staghounds shirt just to piss him off and he spent a good couple of hours trying to get me to put my coat on to cover it up but i made sure i was blue in the face when i finally thought i really should put my coat on before i freeze!!
Last night i thought we were finished though. Scarlett do not panic!!!
Jas and Pete were on the alcohol last night and were quite pissed when Jas sent me a text sayin what you doing, you in bed yet? So i thought it would be funny to send on back saying 'No, i'm cutting out the gorgeous picture of Charlie from the Free Press, it'll go nicely on my bedroom wall. JOKE.'
So Jas flys off the handle and replys 'fuck off you twat if you did that i'll kill you and him and it is nothing to joke about because i love you and i'd never do anything like that to you'.
I seriously thought i was in deep shit!!!!
But we're joking about it now and in a way its made as stronger cos i know how much he feels for me now and when i saw him today i just gave him a big hug and said i love you and only you, so i guess he now knows where my heart lies!!
I never want to be apart from him ever!!! I think i've got it bad!!
bye!
Luv Squeaker
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Only the beginning

sorry i havent been on here for ages!!!
I say this is only the beginning because this hunt ban will be overturned wether the league like it or not! They know nothing about animal welfare and to prove my point today on the news there was talk of a badger cull. The idea of this badger cull is to limit the spreading of a disease called TB so in the long run it will ease the suffering for the badgers. In a minute we will have no country side or wildlife left if the anties have their way! And i'm not joking!!
The Quantock Staghounds meet on the 19th of Feb was really emotional and had me in tears. What really set me off was when Rick blew the horn to signal they were moving away from the meet and the hounds and horses were all excited, eager to get on with what they were born to do and then Rick blew for home as they were not hunting, the confusion for the hounds and horses must have been huge. As we had been talking to Gareth who is whip we were tthe first people to walk behind them and the hounds which was lovely but full of emotion. And as Enid so rightly said this is only the beginning and this ban will be overturned. Its just a matter of time, waiting and patience!
I spent all of today pining for Jas as he was 'snowed in'!!! The funny thing was he managed to get to Tiverton to do some shopping and to buy 2 bottles of port. Am i the only one who thinks he was skiving??!!!
Tomorrow is the point to point and i was supposed to be going but then my friend Mary King is coming down to do an eventing demonstration so i had to make a choice. I opted to see Mary as we are going to the pub afterwards for a meal which will be so cool cos i havent seen her in ages!! I can also sort out my work experiance with her as well as having a good gossip!!!
Scarlett and Chris are going really well and im really pleased for them both!! Especially seen as Chris got a mobile which means when we havent got a bloody clue whats going on out hunting we can give him a ring and get riding!!
Me and Jas are going good too. So far we have only had one arguement which is really just a joking arguement as he thinks the Devon and Somerset Staghounds are the best! Wake up love!!! The Quantock Staghounds totally rock!!!
Anyways must dash!!
love Squeaker
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A Blonde Day

i'm so sorry for sending that message to you Scarlett!!! Maybe it wasn't meant for Jas, maybe it was for Andy!!! Tee hee only joking!!! It was meant for Jas!!!
I know how you're feeling i am missing Jas like mad! I am hopefully seeing him tomorrow though at the Devon and Somerset Staghounds meet. But it depends if i can get my Gran to go to the D&S meet rather than the Quantock Staghound one!!! Normally i would be begging her to go with the Quantock's but Love beckons!!!!!...
Yeah i am staying at Laura's on friday normally i would say i can't wait but this time i'm not so sure!! Not that i don't like Laura but because of what's happening Saturday!!
I had such a blonde day today!! it was quite rediculous!!! Jason found it hysterical though and taking the piss as per usual!! Then he rang me on the phone and i was brave and answered!!! (normally i hate speaking to people on the phone!!. We were on their for over half an hour! Whoops!!
I cooked tea for everyone last night and i was texting Jas at the same time so Mum took my phone off of me and started texting him!! CRINGE!!!!! Luckily they were just discussing my 'crap' cooking!!!
Oh yeah, when i was on the phone to him Mum burst in saying that it was time i went to bed and that i had to remember to take my medication!!! It was sooooooooooooooooooo embarassing but thankfully Jas knew Mum was joking and was laughing about it!!! Me and Jas were discussing my life (which i found really uncomfortable seen as whats happened recently) and when we came off the phone he sent me this really really sweet text saying: 'u know whatever happens in your life i wil love u'. It was soooooooooo sweet it made me cry!! LOL!!
I'm going back to good old Somerset today!! YEY!! back to calm and peace!!!
anyways i'll be on again later or tomorrow
luv Squeaker
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I am in the looney bin!!

I have come to the conclusion that this house is about as mad as mad can be!!
Last night one of the littens (Alfie) came in with a thrush and caused complete chaos!
He was so proud bless him but the trouble is the terrier and all the other seven cats wanted to join in on the came too!!! So we had a dog, eight cats and two people running round the house screaming, laughing, barking, growling, hissing and miaowing!!! Lets just say 'poor thrush'!!! Didn't exactly have a peaceful death did it???!!!
Jas must think we are complete lunatics though cos i was speakin to him when it all happened but hopefully he understands seen as he lives on a farm and anywhere where there is an animal trouble is never far behind!!
I go back to Somerset tomorrow!!!!
Hopefully seeing Jas on Thursday as the D&S are meeting at Hawkridge so hopefully i can persuade Gran and Grandad to take me to the meet!! I really hope so cos i'm missing him already!!
I am dreading Saturday though cos me, bubbles and scarlett are going to The Quantock Staghounds meet - will it be the last one? I really hope not. I am gonna have plenty of tissues at the ready cos i'm sure its gonna be really emotional. The thing i hate is that the hounds and horses don't know whats going on. They don't know that their work and passion is on the line. They don't know that their lives are on the brink. Poor darlings, hopefully the hounds of heaven will call for them like they did Toy and then they can still hunt to their hearts content. I'm sorry but after hunting with this pack i feel kind of attacthed in some way as i have seen the hounds running at full cry, really enjoying themselves, and i have seen the horses galloping flat out with their ears pricked forward enjoying their work to the full.
But anyway its Tuesday so im gonna try and not think about it (which i know wont work).
Anyways i'll be on later i expect (i need something to keep me sane!)
Luv Squeaker
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Sorry!!

sorry Scarlett!!! i didnt forget we just had a crisis!!! One of the kittens came in with a bird and everyone was running round the house screaming - bloody brilliant!!! Wish i had a camera!!! Anyways hope to speak to you soon
luv squeaker
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Still Hyped from entertainments!!!

sorry am really bored!!
its Valentines day and i'm stuck in Dorset away from Jas!!! :-( i'm stuck 92 and a half miles away to be precise!
I'm not the only one though cos Scarlett isn't able to see Chris before Saturday.
I still can't beleive i ran into Charlie!!! it was so bloody funny!!! Just picture me half pissed and the other half bloody stressed and nervous and hyper!! Running along in a very short denim skirt tyring to stay upright and then running full pelt into Charlie!! I didn't know wether to laugh or just well, laugh!! He is sweet though, but i definately do NOT like him (i have Jas :-) ). He gave me this lovely smile and started up a conversation but i could hardly stand up anyway so i just said hi and squeaked out that i had to go!!!! Then to make things worse, when we had finished our performance and i was snuggled up with Jas (heaven) Jas asked me if i had seen Charlie and i just sat there and practically pissed myself with laughter!!! Thankfully Jas likes my sense of humour and he also knows that i do not like charlie in that way!!
Jas had this paper cup and there were bits of paper in it and he flicked it on Phils (another one of my bad mistakes) head and when Phil turned around i was sat there in hysterics and Jas goes "Megan you shouldnt do things like that" so he dropped me in it when i didnt even do it!!! Love hey!!!! But then again if Jas hadnt flicked it on Phil's head then i probably would have done!!! (wicked arent i!!)
Anywayz i'll be on later bout sevenish (this is a note for Scarlett!!)
c ya
luv Squeaker
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YFC Entertainments!!

Bloody hell!!
never been so bloody scared in my life!!
thankfully took plenty of alcohol but then i panicked because i didnt know wether i wud b able to catch the ball!! lol!!! thankfully though i sobered up and our new zealand hacker bit went brill and so did the rest of our little show so we could just sit back and relax after that and watch everyone elses performances!!
Before the show though backstage was bloody hilarious and in complete chaos!! people were running around screaming and i think i can quite honestly say that 80% of us were quite pissed.
i was sooooooooooooooo glad when our performance was over though!! there were so many people watching!! We even ended up in 3rd place!!
whilst everyone else was performing i was sat up in the balcony snuggled up with Jas!! total heaven!! but then i caught andrew looking at me in this funny way and i started to feel guilty but then Jas whispered he loved me so i forgot all about andy and realised how much i loved Jas!! i love Jas 100% and Andy 0% (i now class andy as a gd mate)
Oh, and i ran straight into charlie and nearly died of shock especially when he tried to stike up a conversation but i managed to squeak out that i had to go!! my face must have been a classic!!

New message will be on soon
luv squeaker
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Life!

sometimes i quite
often wonder why we are put on this earth and 9 times out of ten i come up
with
the answer that we are put on this earth to suffer!

Now im not some
depressed maniac but think about it logically, why are we put on this earth
if
we have to put up with so much s**t?

Until about a week
ago i was quite down - My Dad told me never to contact him again and
generally
made me feel small, My Mum lives all the way in Dorset so i'm
stuck on my own
back in Somerset with no parents! Great!!! Luckily for me i
have a great Aunt
and Uncle who are letting me live with them (i wonder do
they know what they are
letting themselves in for). I have been under so
much stress that i've lost over
half a stone and the many sleepless nights
are starting to take their
toll. Then we have to deal with this
demented ban on hunting. Why it is
being banned i really dont know but all
im gonna say (otherwise i will be
rambling away all night) is that all the
Anties and Blair don't know what they
are letting themselves in for and
don't know the full strength of the
countryside when its up for a fight.
Last but not least i lost my horse three
years ago due to some rare disease
and that generally hit me quite hard and
still does to this present
day. However, whilst messing around on the net
i found this great site
called hoofbeats in heaven and it allows you to post a
tribute about your
horse if it has passed away (if your feeling nosey then mine
is under the
name of Toya).

But this was all a
week ago and since then i met this great guy called Jason. He is really
sweet
and lovely and makes me laugh and generally i feel happy and contented
when i'm
around him. So we are now going out and i have a great boyfriend
who i wouldnt
change for the world!!!

luv
squeaker

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