In Between Dreams

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Sunday, March 27, 2005

HUNTER TRIAL CANCELLED

jUST A QUICK MESSAGE TO SAY THAT I AM NO LONGER DOING THE HUNTER TRIAL AS ME AND CAROLINE HAVE COME TO THE CONCLUSION THAT SILVER ISNT FIT ENOUGH SO I'LL PROBABLY TAKE HIM HUNTING AT THE END OF THE HOLIDAYS INSTEAD COS IM NOW RIDING HIM EVERYDAY!
HUNTING ON TUES IN THE CAR WITH JAS!!!
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A Very Big BLIND DROP!!!!

On friday we had blind drop for YFC and it was bloody hilarious!! i was in Jas', Ben's and Chris' team and it was the best fun i'd had in ages!!!!
We were all stood in the car park until everyone had arrived and Charlie turned up!!! Just my luck!! He looked over smiled and waved and i smiled and stuck my finger up!!!
We were then blindfolded and bundled into the back of a car and driven away from williton. Thankfully we were dropped in one of ben's fields so we knew where we were!!! I solved the clue and all we had to do was walk to Cleeve Abbey and gather items on the way! By this time it was dark!! On our way to cleeve abbey i had to climbe over and through hedges, jump an electric fence that was on, climb over barbed wire several times and cut my leg!! Ben gave me a heart attack, and i had to put up with all three of them!! i really enjoyed it though especially when we got back cos i sat down with Jas and when Charlie was trying to get my attention i purposefully kissed Jas but he still didnt take the hint!!!
i forgot to say that the hedges were bloody huge!!!!!! and i saw a rat scampering in front of us in Ben's field!!
write soon
luv squeaker
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Thursday, March 24, 2005

the hunting goddess Diana must be weeping

Ok, i have just been on the countryside alliances website checking the news when the 'animal rights activists' sickened me yet again. Hear is the report:
Bloodhound puppies killed after animal rights extremists break-in
Tuesday, 22 March 2005
Five bloodhound puppies have been killed following a break in to the Southern Shires Bloodhounds** kennels near Andover.
Animal rights extremists broke into the kennels on Saturday night, releasing all the hounds including a bitch with puppies at foot. Five out of six of the litter were found dead by kennel staff early on Sunday morning.
Joint master Mark Winchester commented: "This latest attack goes to show that this has got absolutely nothing to do with animal welfare. Whoever is responsible, and we believe it was anti-hunt activists or animal rights extremists, have acted through blind prejudice. Saturday's attack is yet another disgraceful display of cowardice and ignorance and shows the total disregard these people have for the welfare of animals.
"The amount of abuse we have to tolerate from anti-hunt activists on a regular basis, even out on hound exercise, is quite astonishing, and the cruelty and stupidity behind this latest incident is beyond belief."
Ends...
Notes to editors
**Bloodhounds do not traditionally hunt live quarry. The Southern Shires Bloodhounds hunt the "natural scent of man


i think what we all want to say is what 'complete and utter bastards'. They make me sick...

so heres a message to all you anti-bastards:
Oh what a pity,
Oh what a shame,
Someone is trying to ban
Country Sports again.
Why must they interfere with the running of the land
When the countryside is something they just don’t understand?
But we know the glory of the countryside;

The glory of the beasts there that swim and run and fly,
It’s us who preserve the woodlands, the rivers and the hills,
And if they’ll only let us then we always will
‘Cos we are the guardians, the keepers of the land,

And we know what would happen if country sports were banned.
Who’d replace the management, and care that we provide?
It would mean the raping of our countryside.
‘Cos the environment needs management each and every day,

And we’re the ones who do the work, and we’re the ones who pay.
For landscape and wildlife of all sorts,
We owe them all to Country Sports, we do,
We owe them all to country sports.
We know the glory of the countryside;

The glory of the beasts there that swim and run and fly.
It’s us who preserve the woodlands, the rivers and the hills,
And if they’ll only let us then we always will.
And if the antis ban us, you can be quite sure,

That they won’t bother to do the work that we have done before,
But the trees will still need planting and the hedges must still be laid,
The moors will still need burning and the bills must still be paid.
Their lack of understanding is a national disgrace,

For what they would destroy could never be replaced.
For landscape and wildlife of all sorts,
The future lies with Country Sports, it does,
The future lies with Country Sports
We know the glory of the countryside,

The glory of the beasts there that swim and run and fly.
It’s us who preserve the woodlands, the rivers and the hills,
And if they’ll only let us then we always will
‘Cos we are the guardians, the keepers of the land,

And we know what would happen if country sports were banned.
For landscape and wildlife of all sorts,
The future lies with Country Sports, it does.
The future lies with Country Sports.

The Quantock Staghounds are in trouble too. LACS caught them 'hunting' but their evidence is shit so bollocks to them!!
The QSH point to point was pretty good. Chris was in his element as he was in charge of the flesh wagon (how this can be fun i dont know!!) and he also saw me and Jas getting quite intimate! My words were Bugger!!!
Got blind drop tomorrow night for young farmers which should be fun!! I'll let you know how it went, if we ever get back!!
The hunter trial is getting closer, bugger!!!
I can't beleive how much i love Jas! I promised myself i would never love or depend on something so much when i lost Toya but maybe Jas is the final step in helping me get over her passing. By the way scarlett i havent told Jas a thing about Toy yet, but i spose id better soon!! Hears a song i like at the moment by good old Tina Turner!!
Women of a certain age
They learn to rely and judge all his responses
Having played the mating game
She doesn't waste time cause all that she wants is
Really honest emotions
Ones he can't help but show
Though I hardly know your name I know about love and I know
I don't wanna lose you
I don't even wanna say goodbye
I just wanna hold on To this true love,
true love
Women who have made mistakes
Are a little affraid, they don't like taking chances
She will play the waiting game
She's never impressed by those manly advances
I know I've only just met you
Maybe I should know better
But when you look at me that way
There's something inside that's so right
I don't wanna lose you
I don't even wanna say goodbye
I just wanna hold on
To this true love, true love
I don't wanna lose you
And I always wanna feel this way
Cause everytime I'm with you
I feel true love, true love
Tell me you're real
You're not pretending
Let's make a deal
My heart's depending on you
have a good Easter
please leave me a message scarlett!!!!
luv squeaker
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Thursday, March 17, 2005

why does god break our hearts to prove he only takes the best

Yesterday, Wednesday, the racing people were mourning the loss of a special horse named Farmer Jack. He was a talented, honest horse who like Rooster Booster always tried his best. He was my second favourite racehorse and so i was quite upset when they announced it at Cheltenham festival. Farmer Jack was trained just up the road from me and what broke my heart was that he died training on the gallops at 8.30 and i saw them running from the school bus at 8.25. So this is just a little tribute to a horse named Farmer Jack, run onto heaven darling.
Ive got entertainments again tomorrow night but thankfully its only in front of 50 people! But there is a quiz afterwards which should be funny!!!
Can't wait til Saturday as its the QSH point to point so it should be a great piss up! Sadly Scarlett aint going but me, Jas, Chris, Bubbles and Dan are so god knows what will happen!!
On Sunday i'm going to Aldon horse trials as Mary is competing on one of her younger horses and we can have a good gossip.
I am now riding a horse called Silver who is bloody brilliant!! I'm doing my first ever hunter trial on him on 3rd of April so wish me luck!!! i've got loads of plans for us this summer so hes gonna be a fit boy by the end of it!!
luv ya!
Squeaker
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Tuesday, March 08, 2005

life is full of if, buts and maybes

WHY ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I CAN'T LOOSE JAS AT THE MOMENT I REALLY CAN'T
I NEED HIM AROUND WHILE I GET MY LIFE BACK
HELP
SHIT
WHAT IF I DO LOOSE HIM
THEN IVE LOST EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE
THEN THERES NO POINT IN CARRYING ON
I DUNNO IF U CAN READ THIS TOYA BUT IF U CAN HEARS A MESSAGE "I MITE B WIV U SOONER THAN I THOUGHT"
OH GOD
IF ONLY...
...HE KNEW
BUT THEN...
...IM SHOWING A WEAKNESS WHICH IVE LEARNT NOT TO DO
MAYBE I SHOULD...
...SCREAM? END IT? DIE?
ALL MY LOVE SQUEAKER
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Thursday, March 03, 2005

A Bit of a Blip and a Bit of a Bleep Needed!!!

Today has been a bit strange to tell the truth!!!
Jason was 'snowed in' again but so was Laura (Bubbles) and Mel (Tink) so perhaps he was this time!!!
I didn't pine too much this time as he rang me at lunch so i wasn't too bad but it was strange without him there!!!
I think me and Chris should be moved into different Geography and Food classes cos we're getting each other in some shit at the moment!!!
Today was a cracker!!!!! As Bubbles wasn't here to keep me sane in Food i had to put up with Chris on my own! And of course us being us we wound each other up and hyped each other up!!! Geography was then next lesson with dear old
Mr.Lewis and was a complete scream!! Me and Chris got the usual tellings off but then there was this dead squished worm thing on the floor so Mr.Lewis picked it up in a tissue and then went to put it in my face! My reply was 'get fucking lost'!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! As soon as i realised what i had said i just sat there crying with laughter!! Mr.Lewis was a bit gob smacked and didn't even tell me off!! RESULT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
Might be going round Jason's on Saturday!!!!!!
Then i'm going down to Dorset on Sunday!!!!!!!!!! HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thankfully its only for the day though!!
Anyways gotta phone Jas
bye
luv Squeaker
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