life is full of if, buts and maybes

WHY ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I CAN'T LOOSE JAS AT THE MOMENT I REALLY CAN'T
I NEED HIM AROUND WHILE I GET MY LIFE BACK
HELP
SHIT
WHAT IF I DO LOOSE HIM
THEN IVE LOST EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE
THEN THERES NO POINT IN CARRYING ON
I DUNNO IF U CAN READ THIS TOYA BUT IF U CAN HEARS A MESSAGE "I MITE B WIV U SOONER THAN I THOUGHT"
OH GOD
IF ONLY...
...HE KNEW
BUT THEN...
...IM SHOWING A WEAKNESS WHICH IVE LEARNT NOT TO DO
MAYBE I SHOULD...
...SCREAM? END IT? DIE?
ALL MY LOVE SQUEAKER
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