You were mine
Somewhere in time
I'll look for you first
In my next life


I've never written a love song
That didn't end in tears
Maybe you'll rewrite my love song
If you can replace my fears
I need your patience and guidance
And all your lovin' and more
When thunder rolls through my life
Will you be able to weather the storm?
There's so much I would give ya, baby
If I'd only let myself
There's this well of emotions
I feel I must protect
But what's the point of this armor
If it keeps the love away, too?
I'd rather bleed with cuts of love
Than live without any scars
Baby, can I trust this?
Or do all things end?
I need to hear that you'd die for me
Again and again and again
So tell me when you look in my eyes
Can you share all the pain and happy times
'Cause I will love you for the rest of my life
This is my very first love song
That didn't end in tears
I think you re-wrote my love song
For the rest of my years
I wil love you for the rest of my Life

Memories

Written for that enevitable day when my brave, brave horse will finally learn to give in...

Hunt season begins
All saddles are mounted
The meet gate now closes
The Field are counted

"Follow our Enid now"
We hear the Joint Master call
But one of us is missing
One that always stood so tall

As we look out amoung us
Memories fill the air
Of only the last hunt season
When all of us were there

Manes and tails flying
As they gave it their best shot
Knowing one amoung them
Was seldom ever caught

With so many seasons of trust and courage
For doing what he liked best
He well deserves the praises
He recieved from all the rest

Being devoted to his master
Knowing of his love and care
Held a special bond between them
That only a horse and rider share

And when it came his time to go
To greener pastures on the hill
His "family" as he knew them
were standing by him, still

He was a dear friend, and companion,
Even a listener then and now
And though sometimes contrary,
He was always a pal

Our thoughts will always linger
To the first meet of the season
When Pad's was right beside us...
Never holding back

Forever Free

Of all the things I've ever seen,
Of all the dreams I've ever dreamed,
The finest sight that's come to me,
White horses wild beside the sea

They ran across the trackless sand
In that remote, forgotten land,
And in their running they were free
Beside the boundless, unchained sea.

They raced the first light of the day
And surged across a shallow bay
To feed at ease in grassy plains
With wind alone to groom their manes.

No barn or stable was their home.
No one could govern where they roamed.
They galloped on the fenceless tracts
With no ones burden on their backs.

And each swift horse was nature's child
At home on land forever wild,
And each wild horse was meant to be
At home on land forever free.

There Comes a Day...

When nerve and muscle no longer obey
the eager spirit - There comes a day;
When courage gives way to caution, and you
begin to find reasons not to do;
When high adventure has lost its zest.
Then it's time for a reckoning - what is best?

So hark, young friends, as I tell it to you,
for surely at last you will be here too.
We flew that hedge, my horse and I.
Now suddenly we pass it by;
Was it not just the other day?
He pricks his ears - I turn away.
Must all that joy belong to the past?
Is there nothing left that still can last?
Perhaps a way may yet be found -
Yes, there is a lesser middle ground.

The call of the trail, the glow of the ride -
a woodland walk with shortened stride;
For the sun still warms and water gleams
as ripples flow down the tumbling streams.
The wind blows fresh and spirits mend
with the horse you love - that comforting friend.

Is it all worth it?

Why do we have to bust a gut to get anywhere in our lives when we just die at the end of it?

When I look into your eyes
I can see a love restrained
But darlin' when I hold you
Don't you know I feel the same
'Cause nothin' lasts forever
And we both know hearts can change
And it's hard to hold a candle
In the cold November rain
We've been through this such a long long time
Just tryin' to kill the pain
But lovers always come and lovers always go
An no one's really sure who's lettin' go today
Walking away
If we could take the time to lay it on the line
I could rest my head
Just knowin' that you were mine
All mine
So if you want to love me
then darlin' don't refrain
Or I'll just end up walkin'
In the cold November rain

Do you need some time...on your own
Do you need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone
I know it's hard to keep an open heart
When even friends seem out to harm you
But if you could heal a broken heart
Wouldn't time be out to charm you

Sometimes I need some time...on my own
Sometimes I need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone

And when your fears subside
And shadows still remain, ohhh yeahhh
I know that you can love me
When there's no one left to blame
So never mind the darkness
We still can find a way
'Cause nothin' lasts forever
Even cold November rain

Don't ya think that you need somebody
Don't ya think that you need someone
Everybody needs somebody
You're not the only one
You're not the only one


6 months, those six months have been the happiest sixth months of my life. Of course someone special is missing but she's still here really, she's always with me in all that i do. She's that little voice in my head and in my heart guiding me through all the rubble, giving me a reason to beleive...

I Only Smile Cos I Don't Know What's Going On... (According to his Lordship anyway!)

God is it so wrong to love someone so much?
Is it so wrong to be happy?
Is It so wrong to have moved on?
Is it so wrong to love a man when another man says he loves me as well?
Is it so wrong to love a guy with all my heart but leave another hoping?
Is it wrong to deny the man you love the chance to have a family?
Is it wrong to follow the dreams in your heart?
Is it wrong that i'm still breathing?

Happy Birthday Angel

(Yeah... this right hear... goes out to everyone who has lost someone they truly love)

Seems like yesterday we used to rock the show
I laced the track, you locked the flow
So far from hangin on the block for dough
Notorious, they got to know that
Life ain't always what it seem to be (uh-uh)
Words can't express what you mean to me
Even though you're gone, we still a team
Through your family, I'll fulfill your dream (that's right)
In the future, can't wait to see
If you open up the gates for me
Reminisce some time, the night they took my friend (uh-huh)
Try to black it out, but it plays again
When it's real, feelings hard to conceal
Can't imagine all the pain I feel
Give anything to hear half your breath (half your breath)
I know you still living your life, after death

Every step I take, every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray
I'll be missing you
Thinkin of the days, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to break
I'll be missing you

I miss you Toy
It's kinda hard with you not around (yeah)
Know you in heaven smilin down (eheh)
Watchin us while we pray for you
Every day we pray for you
Til the day we meet again
In my heart is where I'll keep you friend
Memories give me the strength I need (uh-huh) to proceed
Strength I need to believe
My thoughts Toy I just can't define (can't define)
Wish I could turn back the hands of time
Us in the 6, shop for new clothes and kicks
You and me taking flicks
Makin hits, stages they receive you on
I still can't believe you're gone (can't believe you're gone)
Give anything to hear half your breath (half your breath)
I know you still living you're life, after death

Every step I take, every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray
I'll be missing you
Thinkin of the days, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to break
I'll be missing you

Somebody tell me why
One Black Morning
When this life is over
I knowI'll see your face

Every night I pray, every step I take
Every move I make, every single day
Every night I pray, every step I take
Every day that passes
Every move I make, every single day
Is a day that I get closer
To seeing you again
Every night I pray, every step I take
We miss you Toy... and we won't stop
Every move I make, every single day
Cause we can't stop... that's right
Every night I pray, every step I take
Every move I make, every single day
We miss you Toy

Every step I take, every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray
I'll be missing you
Thinkin of the day, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to break
I'll be missing you
Every step I take, every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray
I'll be missing you
Thinkin of the day, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to break
I'll be missing you...


i'm doing great now though girl...
of course i still miss you and it really does still hurt but since i've been given that second chance everythings turned out fine.
I mean the day i got home i was still a bit unsure and then the next night i went out and captured the guy i'm with now 5 and a half months later...
Its just all oh so different when i'm with him. He doesn't know about anything that happened to me from that night till now, regarding my past that is. All he knows is that i had a rough time and he says that as long as thats all i want him to know then its fine coz he doesnt want to talk about his past either. Apparantly we have more in common than i think...
As for Pad's he is just one huge star! I think he's another one of those horses that will never be compared to anything else. He is just so brave, i dont think a horse could get any braver than him...