If only it was... Just another 24 hours...If only...

Been given 24 hours

To tie up loose ends

To make amends

His eyes said it all

I started to fall

And the silence deafened

Head spinning round

No time to sit down

Just wanted to

Run and run and run

Be careful they say

Don't wish life away,

Now I've one day

And I can't believe

How I've been wasting my time

In 24 hours they'll be

Laying flowers

On my life, it's over tonight

I'm not messing no I

Need your blessing

And your promise to live free

Please do it for me

Is there a heaven a hell

And will I come back

Who can tell

Now I can see

What matters to me

It's as clear as crystal

The places I've been

The people I've seen

Plans that I made

Start to fade

The sun's setting gold

Thought I would grow old,

It wasn't to be

And I can't believe

How I've been wasting my time

In 18 hours they'll be

Laying flowers

On my life, it's over tonight

I'm not messing no I

Need your blessing

And your promise to live free

Please do it for me

In 13 hours they'll be

Laying flowers

On my life, it's over tonight

I'm not messing no I

Need your blessing

And your promise to live free

Please do it for me

I'm not alone, I sense it, I sense it

All that I said, I meant it, I meant it

And I can't believe

How much I've wasted my time

In just 8 hours they'll be

Laying flowers

On my life, it's over tonight

I'm not messing no I

Need your blessing

And your promise to live free

Please do it for me

In just 1 hour they'll be

Laying flowers

On my life, it's over tonight

I'm not messing no I

Need your blessing

And your promise to live free

Please do it for me

If only it was just another 24 hours to go. Then i would only have another day until i could go home. I no longer fear death - for there are worse things in life to fear - i guess i've found out the hard way.

Its quite funny, when i was little i was terrified of dying, it seemed such a scary thing being up there on your own. But now i know you dont go 'up there' - you stay where your heart belongs and mine belongs to the quantocks. And i won't be alone for Toy's up there waiting. And she isn't alone for she would have found her lost foal. Star will join us to when her time comes.

I long to feel loved and i long for the comfort.

Its so hard to keep it all in. I don't want my friends to think i'm mad or attention seeking. I just want to stand and scream it all out, scream my anger, scream my guilt, scream my loss.

This is for Toy:

I wish this could be

a happy song

But my happiness disappeared

the moment you were gone

Don't think that i ever beleived that

that day would come

Now all i'm feeling

is lost and numb

And ohhh i know i promised

Mmmm that i would try

But i, yes i, miss you

and it's killing inside

I'll always be thankful

for the time we had

We were blessed

I should celebrate

but i feel too sad

All the wonderful memories

just make me fall apart

And it feels like somebody's

stabbed me in my heart

And ohh i know i promised

Mmmm that i wouldn't cry

But i, yes i, miss you

and its killing inside

Ooh well i, yes i, miss you

want you by my side

I wish this could be

a happy song

But my happiness disappeared

the moment you were gone

Tell me it's not happening

Say it's not as it seems

Tell me that i'm gonna wake up

It's just a bad dream

Please tell me that it's fiction

Tell me it's just a lie

Whatever you choose to tell me

Please say SHE didn't die

And i, yes i, miss you

and it's killing inside

Ooh i, yes i, miss you

want you by my side

Ooh well i, miss you

want you by my side

Back here by my side

Here by my side